It’s dead again. I’m pretty sure I’m going to have to spring for a new one. I may just desert this house. It is a balmy 19 degrees here right now. Thus far, I have been without heat more than with it this winter. I’m freaking depressed. This house doesn’t even have the decency to […]

I remember playing who sank the boat in Miranda’s pool.

I remember going to Niagara Falls on a whim to show my kids how you could have a rainbow without rain.

I remember when Miranda told me she had a bug in her ear and I said impossible. So I got a flashlight and […]

Sometimes that’s a pretty hard thing. Especially forgiving myself. What do I need forgiving for? Being mentally ill, being so depressed that I couldn’t hold it together for my own kids. I know it was beyond my control so why can’t I forgive myself? I think I’m a pretty forgiving person, if it had […]

Once, back when my depression was a minor thing and I still believed in myself, I could handle anything thrown at me. Need to work 12 or 16 hours to earn my paycheck? No problem. Need to do it while dealing with a screaming baby? Still no problem. Squeeze in an hour to take […]

This is not good. I am doing just what the furnace guy did, put the fan always on, set the furnace on emergency heat. No heat. This is clearly not the same problem he said it was in March…or January…or December.  I am spending all of my time huddled in bed with my heating pad. […]

I am working on my daughter’s Christmas present, or maybe her birthday present, which is December 15th. I have my doubts about finishing it this year but I’m giving it my best shot! Of course I can’t tell you what it is because she reads here. I hope I have it mostly done before […]